I Wish all

A HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY !

Mera Bharat Mahaan !!

Salute !!!

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her
hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and
ate quietly.Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her
Know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic
calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she
asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry.
She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew
She wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I
could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart
to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just
pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which
stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and
the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman
who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger.
I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could
not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had
Expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release.
The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks
seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight
to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after
an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there
at the table writing.. I just did not care so I turned over and
was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't
want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the
divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle
to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple:
our son had his exams in a months time and she didn't want to
disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked
me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our
wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration
I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.
I thought she was going crazy.

Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly
And thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies,
she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I
hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day,
we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is
holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.
From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked
over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said
softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling
somewhat upset.

I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to
work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned
on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her dress. I realized
that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I
realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on
her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll
on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy
was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to
carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me
stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few
dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown
so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness
in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in
at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him,
seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential
part of his life.. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I
might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my
arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the
hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.

I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when
I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had
gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed
that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out
of the car swiftly without locking the door.
I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked
upstairs.

Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want
The divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you
have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew,
I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably
because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not
because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that
since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed
to hold her until death does us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then
Slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and
drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet
of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write
on the card. I smiled and wrote: "I'll carry you out every morning
until death do us apart"

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the
bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive
for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time
to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other
that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do,
you just might save a marriage.

Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.

We teach some by what we say
We teach some more by what we do

But we teach most by what we are
- Unknown

You don't get to choose how you are going to die, or when, but,
you can decide how you are going to live, here and now.

I am a little embarrassed with my previous post. I think I was a little harsh with my words. But honestly I get very furious with a situation like that. I can't press my feelings. This is something good about blogs. I can speak out my frustration in it. J

Now with my next epic.J

I am single and looking forward to meet someone to get married to. I tried all the possible ways with myself. I didn't complete my education because of several reasons but I wouldn't hesitate and mind in saying that I was foolish / stupid and didn't like studying. Now I get the pull for being what I was in the past regarding education. I was a shy guy. On numerous suggestions from my friends I changed myself, now I am not shy.

I talk and. talk a lot. I can talk on any subject no matter even if I don't know a hell about the subject. I come across so many girls and without hesitation I talk but .. Hell no effect. Maybe they are not meant to be.

I changed my life style. I treat myself and well I don't overdo it. Before I was a little depressed about my looks but then I realized that I have to be happy with what I am because I am at least normal, after seeing some of them being physically challenged, children with special needs- name it and you will come across some in your own locality. Now I am happy with my looks and indeed confident since also care for my health. In the end the purpose I am doing all this is to get some admiration from someone who would like to have a future with me after knowing me. Earlier I never used to socialize at all- now I socialize and have more friends than before. I never liked the idea of chatting over the net for a simple reason that how would I know that the person on the other side is really what she claims to be or it is just a waste of time and money. Now I visit chat rooms and have indeed made friends.. hmmm well none are females because I think the females on chat sites come for some other reasons, of which I don't have any idea. But I still try to know someone every day.

Then to expand my search I registered myself in a marriage site. I gave in all the details that are true so that there shouldn't be any changes in the stories later. Guess what? I didn't receive any request or any interest from a single female on the whole damn site. Huh I got worried about myself. My confidence started blurring I started getting the same old feeling of depression and disliking again, what to do. I expect someone who likes me the way I am because this same me is going to be till the end. I discontinued visiting the site after 6 months because all I could see was females asking for boys with exceptional education, wonderful life status, handsome = film stars in every aspect with height, physic and wealth. I am neither of this. I am just an ordinary guy who is earning a meager salary, living my livelihood and supporting my family. After quite some time maybe six months later I started accessing my mails and then I had a spam from another site. This site looked promising and enrolled my name in this for a second chance. It was really unexpected when I received an interest from a female saying that she is looking for someone like me. But in dismay the person on the other side was a fake and tried to cheat me with money. "God what did I do wrong. Am I cursed, am I ugly or am I not meant to be married? If there is any such thing then hit me with lightning" was my cry for following 2 weeks. After another 3 months I gave up looking for someone to marry. Now I have decided not to hinder in any direction for alliance. Because all I understood that there are plenty of females in these sites and all around me but it is not me that one is looking for. They have expectations which I cannot match.. Dude

Friends this is not a criticism. Please don't take it personally. I spoke what was building within me.

Thank you for reading.